nightdreams
Dreams have always been important to me. When
I was six or seven, there was a magical green man
who would visit me in my dreams and give me advice.
These dreams were always quite vivid and I took his
advice seriously because I was still too young to think
twice about it. (In fact, I still don't salt my food very
often because of what he told me.)
When I was 18, my friend, Alison, gave me a dream
journal because she enjoyed hearing me recount my
nightly escapades. I would record my entries while half
asleep, so the writing would wander all over the page.
Friends often asked to read my dream journal, so I just
left it out in my room where they could peruse it as they
pleased. Not surprisingly, people especially enjoyed dreams
in which they had appeared, sometimes arguing with me
about their behavior in them. And while all that was fun, it
was from this journal that I became aware that my subconscious
knows more about what is going on in my life than my waking self,
and that there can be more to dreaming than just surreal entertainment.
A dramatic example of this was a series of dreams I had about
my boyfriend at the time. In one, I was approached by a geisha
girl who said, "I have a riddle for you. What do you call it just
before you get married?" "Engagement," I told her. At this, she
laughed and laughed, cruelly, much to the puzzlement of my
dreaming self. In another dream, my boyfriend had a tiny Japanese
girl in his back pocket, like a doll or pet. When I mentioned this
to him in real life, he just laughed and told me what a ridiculous
image that was. Still, I had seen a split second of surprise on his
face which told me there was more to the story than that. So the
next time he took a shower at my place, I looked in his pants'
pockets. There, in his wallet, I found a picture of a beautiful
Japanese girl and a letter from her saying how much she looked
forward to being with him again. When I confronted him, he
admitted that they were engaged.
Of course, the bulk of my dreams are not so easy to decipher,
nor do I feel the need to, but I do enjoy keeping in touch with
this creative aspect of myself. In dreams, I can be man or
animal or inanimate object. In dreams, I can bend the laws of
time and space; sometimes I even fly. Like a colorful garden in
perpetual bloom, my dreaming self constantly produces playful
mental imagery, no matter how dull and restrictive my waking life may be.
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